I cannot believe it so far but I’m officially off the market when it comes to being single. And you know what? On one hand I don’t even care/notice that much because life isn’t about relationships. But I love the fact I don’t feel heartache anymore when I see other people kissing, or walking hand in hand. Because I have that too.
It’s going really great between A. and me. In fact, yesterday he met my parents and it was his own choice!
I did had a bit doubts, sometimes they do come up again. Doubts about me being insecure, what if he meets other great girls for example? But I have to stop that. It feels great between us, even A. thinks so. We are both a bit scared of what the future might bring us. For now we have to enjoy it though. It’s perfect the way it is and I’m thankful for it every minute of the day.
So if there are any girls out there who are 23 years or even older, still single and are about to give up: don’t.
There is always a chance for you to meet somebody at a place where you never expected you would. I’m the living proof that even a girl who’s given up on love and wanted to stay single her whole life could still find a boyfriend and be actually happy. This isn’t a fling or something that is over in a week. I feel that. It’s for real and I love it. Even though I can be insecure at times it also makes me secure at the same time. The way he treats me makes me feel special and sure about life. Even at work I am more secure and talk my mind more then I ever did.
Even though life can be hard, this is something I will appreciate and be thankful for every minute of my day. Because you never know how long it will last.
Last sunday I had my 2nd date with A. and it was… great!
I really love having him around me.
We went to the movie The Fourth Kind. Which sucked big time by the way. It’s about aliens, mixed with a real documentary of a woman who’s been in contact with aliens. At the end there were some scary parts but the movie in general sucked big time. Very confusing. Anyway, we also saw there are new scary movies coming out, like Triangle. I can’t wait to see that one!
A. was as usual very sweet and funny. It feels so great being around him, we both feel we can share everything together even though we just know each other for about 3 weeks or so. It’s crazy and it feels too good to be true. So we are both a bit scared of what will happen while dating. And the good part? We kissed for the first time when I was about to leave. I loved feeling his lips on mine, even though it was a brief kiss since I had to jump in the train. But it was sweet. Even though I saw him 2 days ago I already miss him and I want to see him as soon as possible. The thing is that he works a lot, also on saturdays. So we mostly have the sunday to meet.
I should definatly get my own place soon so we could meet without any parents around us. If only work would give me more hours to work….
Tonight I went on my first date with A. You know, the brother of the boyfriend of my colleague?
It was so great, I really like him a lot. It feels more then just friendship. He’s so sweet and funny, we have lots of things to talk about. There is never a silence. And if there is one it’s a nice silence. Where you don’t feel forced to say something. He is the first guy where I feel I can be myself and really show who I am. He is the first guy that I miss when I don’t see him. He makes me feel like I want to be with him when he’s not around, because I feel good when I’m with him.
My heart is still scared to let him in though.
It all seems too good to be true. I’m afraid I’ll wake up tomorrow and have to accept it was nothing special. Like any other situation has been when I liked a boy.
I shouldn’t let fear lead my life though, and enjoy the good moments.
Unfortunatly it’s easier to say I have to enjoy then actually doing it.
I’m still learning and doing my best, I can’t do more then that.
Good night ya’ll.
Today I went to the birthday of my uncle, it was fun and all but something unexpected happened.
In my life I try to avoid everything that has to do with the movie of MJ. I just don’t want to see that movie, maybe I never will. It’s too hard for me to look at it and I don’t care how lame that sounds. I just can’t.
My aunt though told me she had the movie and wanted to show me pieces of it. I totally didn’t expect it and screamed in my mind ‘NOO!!’. Except for my brother, father, mother and my readers on WordPress nobody else knows how much MJ’s death hurts me. So my aunt had no idea that the movie is just too hard for me to look at. The thing is though that my feelings are hard to explain, because 9 of the 10 times they don’t understand it. So I didn’t want to be the party pooper and said it’s alright if she shows me the movie.
Luckily for me I was suddenly occupied by my nephew because he wanted to show the applications on his IPod. But while I was focussing my attention on the IPod I still heard the movie. It was a weak and very tough moment for me. I’m happy nobody saw that because I was pretending to be busy with my nephew. Thank Bob we went home very fast so I could get away from it.
It’s so hard to let people know why I act like this when it comes to the movie This Is It.
I can’t even explain myself if I wanted to, all I know is that I feel pain. As if this movie isn’t any good. It’s not the only Michael people should remember. MJ wasn’t only an artist. He was a human being who was about to die right after the rehearsels because of his bad life style. Because of the way he put himself to sleep. It’s not the Michael I want to remember and see as last. It’s not the Michael I want in my head when I go to sleep.
Even though I didn’t knew him personally, I can’t help missing him so much..
I have NO idea what ‘I get that a lot’ episodes are about, I just read about this on Perez Hilton today and loved it!
Paris Hilton pretends to work at a gas station and helps out people. She is fun, mature and really helpfull. I love her this way and hope to see more of this in the future. Keep up the great work, girl!
Sometimes, when I look at Britney Spears her old video’s I can’t help thinking she was at her best with her first and second album. After that it pretty much went all downhill.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been a huge fan of Britney back in those times. But as she grew older she got disconnected from me, starting to act all different so I couldn’t relate myself to her anymore. Of course I understand she was forced to grow up much quicker then I had to, because of the showbusiness. Still though… Where on her life path did it all go wrong? What if she never went on the wrong path and always stayed the sweet talented girl she was during her first and second album? Does she ever look back to the old days, where she was more respected and loved then she is now? Her video’s these days don’t make any ducking sense, not to mention she can’t dance that good anymore and moves as if she only entertains men.
It’s not my life and I shouldn’t care, I can’t help wondering though…
You were so great, Britney.
This is amazing and it makes my ducking day!
Confidence is something I always saw as a part that belongs to only pretty girls. Girls being confident about theirselves because of how they look, act, and so on. I wasn’t one of them when I was younger, and even though I’m growing older and feel more sure about myself I still have my doubts. Today however I found a beautiful, breath taking woman on internet, wanting the guy I had a epic failure date with. She tells me she knew him from 8 years ago and that he is a wonderful person. This girl, who could get any guy in the world (even george clooney, Johnny Depp and Brad Pitt) wants this guy who is selfish and talks about himself only. Does this makes any sense? Of course not!
She is more desperate then the ugliest woman alive, who begs for her first boyfriend. Only because he is so called ‘wonderful’ as a boyfriend. Not to mention he acts towards this girl without any respect, telling her she needs to leave him alone. Sending her emoticons who put their middle finger up to the girl. How ‘wonderful’ is that of an adult? She tells me it’s thanks to this selfish guy that she has a American career as model. Right, she forgets about the part where he only introduced her to some friends of his and did nothing anymore. She totally forgets she had to work for what she wants as well. She all says it’s thanks to him.
Where is the confidence of this girl? Where is the proud of this girl that she should have about herself, being a great model and reaching her dream. Of course this guy deserves credit for introducing her to some people in the show business. But he is NOT worth it to get licked on his heels while he treats her like garbage on internet. I don’t get it. For the first time of my life I feel like I’m more confident and secure then the most beautiful model I have ever seen. It doesn’t make sense and it doesn’t even feel good. As if I feel ashamed of this girl and need to teach her some independancy.
Weird things happen in 2010. This is going to be a crazy year..
Last weekend, on saturday the 2nd of january, I met a boy. He is the brother of the boyfriend of my collegue. Yeah, it’s a bit complicated so let’s call this boy A. shall we?
We met on the 2nd at my collegues house. On the first moment I laid my eyes on him there was a spark. Even my collegue told me she saw there was something going on between us from that moment on. Which I’m thankful for so I don’t think I’m crazy, lol. Anyway, on the 2nd I couldn’t stay for too long. On the 3rd we saw each other again at my collegues place and we all made soup for dinner.
A. helped creating the meatballs for the soup, me and my collegue did the rest.
I was a bit quiet because I wanted to observate A. to the fullest. He is so sweet and so funny. My collegue told me she knew he liked me as well. She tried to connect us before which didn’t work out because we never met. This weekend it worked and it was a success. I love it.
I really hope this works out. He is so sweet, cute, sexy, funny. I can’t wait for our first date to start.
Hopefully our first date will be soon. Upcoming weekend I have to go to my uncle’s birthday though. Fun..
Today I logged into my WordPress account and looked up how people got to my blog today. When I do that I see the words what they searched for and why they clicked my WordPress link. Today I read people searched for a picture of Justin Bieber dead. DEAD! A picture of that poor boy being DEAD!
What is wrong with the world as it is today? Why are people so into seeing pictures or movies about a person dying or being dead? It isn’t only with Justin Bieber, it’s also with Brittany Murphy, Michael Jackson, Saddam Hoessein and more! Why would you want to see that? Seriously.. could someone answer me this question?
Justin Bieber isn’t dead by the way, at least not according to TMZ and Perez Hilton. Sorry to disappoint the people who searched for the picture.
As I mentioned earlier I would have a first date the past weekend.
To keep it short: it sucked.
The guy itself was very nice, good looking and seemed to have everything I wanted in a man. He was trustworthy for my feeling, which is a good thing. But what he forgot to tell me is that he mostly cares about himself..
Serious, all he could talk about was about himself. I had to come with all the questions, and when he finally had a question it was to ask if I have any pets. It felt like I was sitting with a “friend” who is selfish and too stuck up so he only talks about himself. The only good thing was that he paid for the dinner. He didn’t make me laugh or care at all. You could really tell he expected I was impressed at what he accomplished in life, but it was boring as hell. I guess he was more surprised that I wasn’t impressed, at all.
I guess I’m closing my internet dating account. Because there is also something positive that happened this weekend. I will tell that in another post.
Lesson learned: don’t have too much trust in internet dating, no matter how good someone looks from inside and out.
